self-importance/grief/etc.

I am posting today for the first time. I can't really imagine that anything I have to say is important enough for anybody to read.

However, sometimes moms do say important stuff. I know mine did and I wish I _had_ paid more attention. I miss her all the time and long to hear her voice. Will it always be this way? Learning to live with grief is a tough one. Why didn't she warn me? She must have known; she was widowed at my age now.

We are on the front line now. Neither of us has a parent between the here and now and the ever after. I am not sure that I am grown -up enough to handle that but I must because now I stand between the now and after for my children and their children.

Be still and listen.